Wednesday, December 07, 2005

The Hardest Thing To Do...


It's ironic, the cards life deals you to play with. First of all, I've always been the one other people gravitates to when it comes to talking. A friend once referred to me as a "People Magnet" seemingly never meeting a stranger or turning anyone away if they happened to want to talk, often times general conversations leading into entrusted secrets. I guess, it all comes from being a good listener and being able to keep those secrets. Now on the other hand, as you probably can tell, one of the hardest, most difficult things to do in this world, for me, is talk about myself. I have never fully opened up to anyone and it is probably obvious to those of you stopping by why this is. Life dealt me a deck of cards I thought I had to play. If fact, I have played them into a good life according to most other people's standards. Don't get me wrong, it's been and still is a good life but its been a life totally lived for others. If I had to live it over, there are things I would never change but the pathway I talked about in a earlier post would have been a different one, it may not have been better, but it would have been more honest and true. Let me say here, I'm not seeking pity, I'm not seeking sympathy, actually this post is leading to something totally the opposite. Even though the "inside me" feels like the person looks in today's pic empty, alone.........today's post is actually one of THANKS: I thank each and every one of you guys that stop by, that takes the time to leave a comment, or send an email. If you only knew how much I envy you, for being open, for being honest to yourself, and above all for being "my listener." Thank you for allowing me to share the other person inside.....

8 comments:

Donnie said...

That was a great post. Very honest and open. Good job Stephen.

woe said...

Stephen, I think it is our priviledge to listen to you.

This post along with you mask post ring very true. Like you somethings I would not change, but a different pathway I would follow. blogs like yours make me realise my story is not unique (maybe a little different) and more importantly I am not alone.

Your blog often makes me want to start a sentence with , My wise friend Stephen said...............

North Woods Guys said...

Wonderful words ~ as you share from your heart...so very honest and open and coming from your heart.

Warren and Steve

Spider said...

Stephen... another heartfelt, warm and touching post - your strength, courage and insite amaze me...

As woe said, I think the priviledge is OURS! Thanks for sharing your life with us!

Spencer said...

What a great post!

Hypoxic said...

Stephen, ditto what everyone else above said (I hate it when I get to a post and everyone else has already said what I was thinking LOL)

Hang in there and good luck! Good thinkgs can and do happen.

Stephen said...

No words can describe the warmth in my heart at the comments left from each of you.....a mere thank you does not begin to express my feelings when I read each comment. I love you, all.

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