Saturday, October 10, 2009
Is it the fear of the unknown that made my hand tremble when I reached for you? Is it the knowing what I had on this side of you? The times my hand rested but never turned, why? Never taking the chance, never knowing what could have been, what have I missed? Have I waited too long? Is it too late?
Monday, August 31, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
I've turned over every rock and boulder searching for it, but for the life of me can't remember where I put it. I usually don't misplace things, everything has a place and everything is in its place, but not this time. I've looked high and low, but still no luck in finding it. I haven't used it in a long time. Heck, I haven't had the time to even look at it, but I thought it would always be there patiently waiting. After looking and searching I'm afraid I may have took it for granted one time too many. Is it too late? Please God, it can't be too late, I can't stay stuck in this rut for much longer. I've got to find the "BAD BOY" side of Stephen soon......
Friday, August 14, 2009
It has been quiet as a graveyard around here for way too long and I know I've been forgotten and buried by many readers and that is understandable, but I am alive. Forgive me for not updating but I allowed myself to fall victim, void of caring, void of feeling and when that happens there is nothing worth sharing. Somehow my life took a unexpected detour and I got lost. I've thought about you often and hope to catch up with you all again very soon.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
If there is anyone out there that still cares or wonders, things are about the same. I am still lost, stumbling around in the darkness, lost in the fog of too much work. My life is clearly going down the toilet and I don't know how to get it back. Why did I allow this to happen?
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Thursday, February 05, 2009
What have I gotten myself into? How did I allow this to happen? Questions I'm still asking myself. Mama didn't raise no fool, but when I look into the mirror, I see one staring back at me. I worked hour after hour, gave up pleasure after pleasure to make sure the project was a success and thought once I had it completed and presented I could capture the life I once knew, once had, but NOOOOOOOOOO! Believe it or not, there is such a thing as doing too good of a job. Just my luck, the project was a major success, the presentation was a major success, and the bonus I received more than compensated for the long hours, but if I knew then what I know now, I would have given it second thoughts. I never thought for one minute this project would turn into a major life change. The life I once knew, had is gone. I use to work some long hours but only a day here, a day there, actually had more days off than on, but because of the "job well done" I've been asked to step back into a working/teaching position which will involve seven days a week for the next several months. Why me? Why can't I say, NOOOOOOOOO! Go ahead, take a magic marker and write FOOL across my forehead.................I deserve it!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
The tunnel was long but I have finally made it to the end, or close enough to at least see the light. The project is finished, presentation isn't officially until tomorrow, but it has already been signed off on, and the presentation is only a formality. There were some dark days, extremely long days, some I almost gave up days, but I hung in, I refused to throw in the towel. Now, maybe I can get my life back to some normalcy, if there is such a thing. Heart-felt thanks to each of you that stopped by, thanks to each of you that sent loving, caring emails. I will always hold your friendship inside a cherished place, my heart, and with each of its beats, I will always be reminded of you. Hopefully soon, I will be getting around to saying hello to all my blogging family, but until then, I think I will enjoy the rest of today, the world, outside. ((((HUGS))))