Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Insight


Some believe the eyes are a person's window into their soul. I wonder. Although, my eyes are open, I allow the blinds to be only slightly cracked for fear of what the world may truly see. Today, did I adjust the blinds a little too much, did I allow too much light to enter, could you see inside the depths of my soul? Sitting across the table from you I find it hard not to follow what's in my heart. I look into your eyes and I'm drawn in like a moth is drawn to the flickering flame of a candle burning in the night. The danger of dying ever present, but it cannot help itself, as I almost can't. I long to feel your touch, more so than a casual brush of the hand, as we both reach for a napkin, I hunger to hold you in my arms, as much as a man dying of thirst craves a drop of water, to hold you so tight neither of us able to draw the next breath. You have never let on, as I, always keeping the guard up, never allowing you to fully enter but today there is a difference. Have I shown you too much? Your eyes are saying far more than the words escaping from your lips. Or is it only my wishful dreaming, my imagination. If I fully opened up, what was held within, closed off from the sunlight, hidden away in its cell of solitude, came rushing out, would my world change for the better or crumble like a sand castle as the tide rushes in? Dare I take the chance? As my courage builds, the words about to burst out.......the alarm clocks goes off. Can you hear the screams?


I told you this stuff comes from a complicated mind, somewhat therapeutic for me and hopefully a little entertaining for you.

Can you guess who the eyes belong to?

12 comments:

WorldOnEdge said...

Stephen based on the little conversation that has gone between us, I believe I can say you have a good soul. I don't need to look into your eyes to see that.

You seem to indeed be a complex individual. Your posts need to be read more than once. Your post offers both entertainment and food for thought.

Spider said...

What a powerful post - a feeling that all of us have, gay, str8, bi, out or kinda out... that feeling of needing to be connected do someone - physically, emotionally, spiritually - that burning feeling deep in you that actually makes you hurt... you want to touch that person, grab them, hold them, but something inside of you won't let you...

But you have to adjust the blinds... you have to begin to let the light in - you have to begin to let others see you for the warm, wonderful, intelligent and loving man that you are...

And I feel that you really are...

Spider said...

Oh yea - and I am guessing the eyes are yours - and they are absolutely beautiful eyes too!

Stephen said...

Thanks to both of you for the kind, wonderful words. Like Spider said, it kinda fits a person's life regardless of what path chosen, we all need to love and be loved.

Woe, I hope all is well with you..

Spider, thanks for the guess on the eyes, I only wish they were mine.

Spider said...

So - give us a hint as to who they belong to...

Stephen said...

Spider, kinda looks like Donnie's eyes from over at Fresh N' Tasty don't they, but I think Donnie has prettier eye lashes.

Here's your hint: October Sky

Spider said...

They must belong to...

Jake Gyllenhaal! (God Bless Dogpile!)

Can't wait to see "Jarhead" and "Brokeback Mountain"...

David said...

Heavens, I guessed Jake before I even read the post.

Stephen said...

Yep,the eyes belongs to Jake. Hasn't he grown into just a fine specimen of "manhood"?

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