Monday, October 27, 2008

Three Faces of Stephen (Conclusion)
















I knew it! I knew he was going to be pissed. I knew there would be hell to pay, but I couldn't resist. I tried! I really did. Well, on second thought, maybe I didn't. Maybe I did flirt a little too much, but I'm tired of listening to him. I'm tired of hiding inside this cramped dark closet. I'm tired of living this celibate life. I'm tried of living in his shadow, hidden away in his darkness. I want to feel again, to live again, I want to know what love feels like again. And if I leave it up to the two of you, well, we all know what will happen and I'm not ready to accept that fate. So here is your warning, if I get the chance, I'm kicking the damn door off its hinges.
















Listen at you! Going to kick the damn door down, huh? What makes you think you can do it now after all these years? The two of you are giving me a migraine, sit down, shut up, and listen. If its not him ranting and raving, then its you ranting and raving. Give it a break! Take a deep breath, calm down, and think about this thing. My life is no picnic here, let me tell you. Day after day, I sit here, I watch the battle, the struggles, with needle and thread I stitch up the bloody wounds each of you inflict on one another. It's hard, I know its hard, both of you are strong in your convictions, determined to fight until the end, neither one willing to give an inch, but something's got to give. The battles are getting bloodier and frankly Florence Nightingale is getting tired. The two of you must find a compromise, we are in this thing together, and whether you like it or not we are stuck with each other....................

5 comments:

afod said...

Just remember who's the strongest! (((((Stephen)))))

peter said...

YOU ARE the strongest! (((((STEPHEN)))))

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Speaking of being able to relate, I completely get this Stephen, even though I finally move past this part, I feel for you buddy, and I say everything has to be done on your own time. First let me say, try to find the people in your life who would support you, gay or straight, find them and go from there buddy...when you are ready.

Brettcajun said...

Very interesting posts. I wish you well boo. BIG HUG.

Java said...

You know you've got support here, Stephen. That may not help out where the boots hit the gravel, but hopefully it gives you some internal sense of perspective or something.

Pardon my saying so, but this ain't no conclusion. Everyone has had his say, but it ain't the end.