Tuesday, April 21, 2009

How Did It Happen?












If there is anyone out there that still cares or wonders, things are about the same. I am still lost, stumbling around in the darkness, lost in the fog of too much work. My life is clearly going down the toilet and I don't know how to get it back. Why did I allow this to happen?

11 comments:

Java said...

I think of you occasionally. It's a fond think. I wish you well, Stephen. I hope you can find your way out, and I mean that in a few different respects. Good luck.

Steven said...

Checking by all the time to see how you're doing. I wish there was a way I could help. (((((Stephen)))))

Peter said...

Due to a PC crash I lost your email address. Just mail me.

Losing yourself in work can look as an escape but is really putting yourself in another prison. (((((Stephen)))))

Lemuel said...

There are indeed those of us who care about you and what is happening to you. Although perhaps not in the same way or for the same reasons (since I do not know your details), there are many who sense that life is in the toilet. Let's all hang on to each other. It may be a wild and crazy ride, but together we can ride it out.

Ur-spo said...

can you post some details as to what is happening?
We could be of use.

Try not to dwell on 'how did this happen?" but work on what do I need to do now.

johnmichael said...

Just thought about you...I hope things are alright!!
Post something...let us know you are okay....

Java said...

Hey Stephen, I've been thinking of you recently. I hope you are OK.

Ur-spo said...

are you around anymore? How are you doing?

EricJ said...

Stephen - I keep checking in hoping for an update. Hope you're OK.

Anonymous said...

Are you saying that your life is unmanagable? I recall that you disclosed (in the early history of your blog)that you are an addict. I believe there was a pic of some cocaine with the post. I know crystal meth is a demon for many in the gay community. Drug and alcohol addiction is not uncommon. I perceive at least some degree of self-pity throughout your writings. I, too, am an addict (alcohol). A 12-step program has helped keep me sober for several decades. You can find all kinds of help online at websites for any number of 12-step programs, self-help groups, online meetings, blogs by and about recovery. They seem almost countless. They have certainly helped me remain grounded in sobriety. I can't imagine living in the rural south. I imagine you have a number of serious issues in addition to addiction. Get some help. In my program, there is a saying about self-pity: Poor me, poor me, pour me a drink. You cannot afford self-pity. Good luck and God Bless. Keep us readers posted on your progress.

victor said...

I hope you can find your way out, and I mean that in a few different respects. Good luck.
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