Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Missing





During my morning shave, I stood there looking at the man in the mirror and I realized there was a part of him/me that I no longer could see. For five full minutes, I stood . . . shaving cream drying on my face, hand just holding the razor . . . face to face, I stared. The mirrored image was mine, each line, each wrinkle, etched by time I recognized, but something was amiss, something was different. A part of this man had vanished, a part of me, gone. No longer whole, I stood looking at an empty shell of the man that once was. I was afraid, I had hidden him for so long, shadowed him in secrecy, denied him for so long, that he had given up. His/mine/our hopes, our dreams swallowed up by the darkness of time. Standing there, staring into my own misty eyes, I wonder if our paths will ever cross again. . .

9 comments:

Sooo-this-is-me said...

I hear you buddy, some days I think the same thing, the guy in the mirror is not someone that I know.

Steven

Ur-spo said...

despite outwards, we remain the same soul.
also, we can consider ourselves fortunate we got this far; i know far too many who did not
and finally - grow a beard! nothing like a new frock to brighten up the day.

M said...

I know the feeling. I've been there many times and still today, I find myself staring and looking at a "stranger" of sorts. Your paths will cross again and this time you will have the strength. Have courage my friend. My thoughts are with you. If you wanna chat - send me a mail buddy :-)

JON said...

I trust that your soul is indeed not empty. Not void of the man you are.

Changing, being filled with something new and
different...becoming new. Re-born in a way. Better... Truer... More alive, sentsitive...

I hope there will be a sunrise soon when you look in that mirror and you see that soul immerging even if it is through misty eyes.

daveincleveland said...

with your words, your kindness and overflowing love your soul is NOT empty, and keep looking, once you realize who you are and who you were intended to be, you will see you again, steven hang in there, it does get better, push that door open a little more and let the sun shine in and bask in it, you will find you

Peter said...

Don't give up on yourself, that other person is still there taking a breather before he kicks that closet door open...

We love you Stephen, start loving yourself too

Ur-spo said...

hello out there
it is time to put out a new entry and tell us your news/updates - for we do like to hear from you!

daveincleveland said...

hey, anyone out there......hope you had a great christmas, and if we don't hear from you happy new year......come out come out wherever you are....:)

JON said...

All my best to you Stephen. Miss your posts very much. Miss your comments.

Wish we could just do lunch halfway somewhere between the two of us.