Monday, March 20, 2006

Escape



Sometimes, it seems the more I struggle against the bonds that bind, the tighter they become, struggling to escape the darkness, lost in a cavern with no light, cold, wet, I shiver in the darkness. Twisting and turning I fight to become free, struggling from the boa constrictor grip holding me captive.

To the outside world there is no visible signs of a struggle, no conflict, no raging war, but within there is bleeding, blood gushes from the open wounds. Half a person peering out into a world, an open book but with blank pages, no words written for the prisoner locked inside this darkness. Obligations and responsibilites for the person of light, dreams and hopes for the person of darkness. I struggle to break free of these bonds, I struggle to be free.


Ok, I know what you must be thinking but everything is alright. Stephen has not stepped off into the deep end of an empty pool and landed on his head. Everything can't always be roses and sunshine, everything can not always be simple, life is complicated, we all have our problems, we all have our demons and mine just reared it's ugly head and it took me a few days to kick it's ASS!

12 comments:

dave in cleveland said...

at least you kicked its ass....this the first step....my friend you will be fine......just let go and let time take its path and all will work out......trust me, take it one day at a time. i know sometimes i hate the waiting and want it all right now, but take the time and will be worth it...truth.....happiness..it will all come

Kelly said...

Cool ass pictures you posted today...and yes, just hang in there and live life on a day to day basis...you seem to be a strong person and will be able to handle it

Hypoxic said...

Good for kicking it's ass! That's one for the good guys.

Just remember. We're here to help carry the load if it ever seems too much.

And what Kelly said about the pictures!

jetboy747 said...

Beautifully written. You took the words of my head. And the pictures out of my dreams.

Mr. Brian said...

If you step off the deep end, spread your wings. You'll fly in a direction you never knew you could take.

Rob said...

Dearest Stephen...I'm glad to hear you kicked the demon's ass because if you hadn't I would come and do it for you. Life can get very complicated and no, it's not always sunshine and roses as much as we would like it to be. Your words have a power unlike anything I have seen. You have a way of expressing what so many of us feel in a way that we all understand. As always, you are in my thoughts as we continue this journey called "life." Hugs n kisses...

Brad said...

Stephen, you are the noble and fierce "demonslayer".

Now that I know your profession, Could you slay a few for me?

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Spider said...

Sounds like to me the best man won...

woe said...

Stephen, glad you got that one beat. They sometimes just sneak up on you.

You are much loved and there are lot of us here for you. Like I know you are for us.

Derek said...

wow, I write much like that at times. I so enjoy reading your blog. There's a bit of mystery to you too!

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