Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Finding My Way Out




The opening of my eyelids drove the darkness of the night away this morning as they opened to the sunlight shining through the windows of the bedroom. Arms folded over the chest, corpse like, I lay there motionless, allowing only the involuntary actions of my body to function. Blinking, clearing the eyes of sleep, clearing the mind of clouded dreams, I laid there. Aware of my morning hardness, aware of the deafening silence of an empty house, my senses became alive, but I remained a corpse in waiting, eyes staring out into space. Sitting on the nightstand, only a turn of the head away, a clock faithfully counted the seconds of the passing of the day, but I lost track of time. . . I laid there. The gears of a thinking mind, my mind were turning but no images were being projected, there was nothing but a blank screen. A maze of grey matter and I could not see the exit sign, body motionless, mind spinning, I wandered, I searched its corridors, finding only more dead ends. I laid there . . . catatonic . . . staring into space . . . Amelia Earhart lost.

7 comments:

daveincleveland said...

yeah but think just think what you can do with that blank screen, you have your whole life you can re-write and start fresh....this will come dear friend, don't consider it a dead end but a new beginning

Greg said...

So you have morning wood, huh? Well, jack yourself off to a pleasurable ending, then stop staring into space and get yourself un-lost! Enjoy the new day! lol

Stephen said...

dave, another chance at a blank canvas, another chance to paint a different sunset, another chance to write a happy ending to a different story . . .dreams for another lifetime, I'm afraid

Stephen said...

greg, the morning started as I described but ended as you described. Stephen, Jr. would only be denied for so long . . .

daveincleveland said...

hey you does not have to be dreams for another lifetime......take the chance,live your life, live it for truth, be you be real be the stephen i know is in there

peter said...

Don't get lost in dreams or blank canvasses, today is the first day of a new life!

So pick up those brushes and paint and start colouring, you may cross the lines.

Jason_M said...

Oy.