Friday, October 06, 2006

Time For A Change?


The leaves are turning on the trees from their vibrant greens to various shades of yellow to rust browns as they fall from the branches. Their dried withered lives rustle in the wind. Maybe it is the change of the season but here lately I've been feeling much like one of these leaves. My outward life, stable, feet firmly planted, standing solid against the elements, let come what may, let the wind blow, this rock is grounded, this man is strong, a protector, a provider. But inside, there is another part of this man that is every bit one of these leaves. His (my) direction in life has been lost, hidden somewhere in all the darkness, this part of the man is being tossed hither and there by the forces of the approaching winter storms. Even blogging of late has been a lost direction, once what I could not wait to do, once what I had time to do has been falling by the wayside, becoming bare as the leafless tree. My first blogging anniversary passed a few days ago and the words of a sweet friend comes to mind, "The trick is now staying with it for another year, so many fall away from blogging after the 1st anniversary." words of wisdom and truth. I don't know where this man is going, the direction, my direction that I thought had been mapped out is no longer clear. Today my mind is crowded, I can not think, I have no direction. When I look inside, only one thing is clear, you my friends are my rock, my protector. Hugs and kisses, Stephen

6 comments:

The Persian said...

I'm feeling much the same way today, but then again I am home with a broken toe and on vicodin. There is so much I should be doing at home (like cleaning etc) but here I sit online catching up on my favorite bloggers.

I hope you don't give up and stay with it. Blogging can be very theraputic (not to mention bringing people together from across the globe who would never in the "real world" have the chance to interact).

HUGS buddy :)

Have a great weekend, try and cheer yourself up, get out, do something fun and distracting.

Spider said...

What ever you choose - we are here for you my friend - I hope you stick with it - I would hate to loose you...

Stephen said...

the persian, sorry to hear about the broken toe, hope it is on the mend. Thanks from the heart for the sweet words, you are so right about blogging bringing people from all over the world together, wonderful people like you have entered my life and made it so much better.


spider, you have been there from day one with words of cheer, words of wisdom, a shoulder when I needed one, you are a special wonderful friend.

woe said...

Dear Stephen, as one of the first blogs I ever found your blog represents a whole world in my life and I hope you keep it going. Your writing is exceptional.

Stephen said...

woe, my dear, dear friend, know when I say thank-you, the words comes straight from my heart to yours. I hope everything is going well with you, your presence here at the Closet has been missed.

daveincleveland said...

stephen yours is also one of the first i read, and have now entered this blogging world and am really enjoying the friendships made here....so don't give up, keep on blogging, while i don't have the gift you do for writing, i feel my words may make a differnce to someone somewhere......as yours have for me........