Waiting, Knowing, Expecting

Head tilted back, arms out stretched, faster and faster . . . spinning round, turning round, falling down dizzy . . . rolling down hill, arm over arm, leg over leg . . . waiting, knowing, expecting the THUMP!

Just My Luck

What have I gotten myself into? How did I allow this to happen? Questions I'm still asking myself. Mama didn't raise no fool, but when I look into the mirror, I see one staring back at me. I worked hour after hour, gave up pleasure after pleasure to make sure the project was a success and thought once I had it completed and presented I could capture the life I once knew, once had, but NOOOOOOOOOO! Believe it or not, there is such a thing as doing too good of a job. Just my luck, the project was a major success, the presentation was a major success, and the bonus I received more than compensated for the long hours, but if I knew then what I know now, I would have given it second thoughts. I never thought for one minute this project would turn into a major life change. The life I once knew, had is gone. I use to work some long hours but only a day here, a day there, actually had more days off than on, but because of the "job well done" I've been asked to step back into a working/teaching position which will involve seven days a week for the next several months. Why me? Why can't I say, NOOOOOOOOO! Go ahead, take a magic marker and write FOOL across my forehead.................I deserve it!